do you ever have days when you decide you're going to follow a new path? you wake up thinking... i've got to try a different tactic? not that the old hasn't been working... just that perhaps you need a new venue - a change of scenery - a mind shift...
ever since my accident last year, i've been struggling with aspects of ptsd and driving has been especially difficult... one thing discussed in therapy was that maybe i should venture out on the roads at hours of the day when there would be very little traffic... to help me get back that sense of freedom and escape i used to have with being in my car. it's been a long time since i've had the wherewithal to get to the garden park, so i figured i'd get up really early this morning and venture out... when i thought few vehicles would be around. see what success i'd have. i wasn't thinking of success with my camera at all...
so i cranked up a cd... opened the sunroof on the car to let in the early morning cool air - and off i went. i admit anxiety still plagued me... but traffic was light and the idea was worth it for sure. as i tried to lose myself in the music, i pulled in to the park and began to think ahead about my photo for the day.
no sooner did that thought enter my mind than did i see a deer - right to the side of my car... in the grasses... imagine my excitement - and joy! what a treat... what a treasure... raising its head, looking directly at me and waiting for me to reach for my camera; it didn't move. i didn't breathe... i think i got about 3 shots off before, head down - off it darted. i sat back, heart beating rapidly. camera success!
how many opportunities do we miss out on because we do not dare... because we do not venture out... because we do not risk... because we're afraid to take that first step. i realize my ptsd isn't going to just magically disappear because i saw a deer this morning. but i do recognize the value in branching out - in problem-solving my situation and taking risks even when it's scary and anxiety producing. i must continue to do these things if i want to move on and experience life in its fullest form.
plus, maybe now i'll be able to buy those new sandals i've had my eye on...
happy day.....
the roses have been blooming... i've been meaning to get some pics up of them... sigh... so i have some days to make up for. here are some samples in all their glory...
what a sight to see. plus, there's nothing like the sweet aroma and fragrance of a rose... but all too soon the blooms will be gone, the bushes will be green for the summer and they'll be just a memory 'til next summers buds begin again.
happy day.....
have you ever tried to catch a ladybug? on purpose? with intent?
they move fast... very fast... especially when they have no desire of being paid any attention. i came across this little one...
and then it became a game of cat and mouse... as he grew aware that i wanted to get him on film. well, okay. perhaps that's a stretch - but definitely he knew that something was up... i had my eye on him.
take a look...
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| going off the edge |
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| playing hide and seek |
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| jumping into oblivion |
however most all my shots were merely blurs... as i attempted to keep up. i really had hoped to get some wing action but surprisingly, he didn't try to fly away... being content to remain on the leaves and blades of grass.
i don't even know if it was a "he"... how do you know if a ladybug is a he or she? and why are they called lady? and in the uk, they call them ladybirds. boo! why might that be? different countries, different cultures... but we all see the same things and are fascinated by the same intriguing colors, shapes, movements and habits of nature, aren't we?
it all continues to make for a
happy day.....
not sure what kind of bird has laid these wonderful little eggs... but she is being a good mama - flying in and out of the wreath hanging on the front door of my friend's house... making sure the nest is just so and her eggs are well secured and protected.
i just got word today that the eggs have now hatched and there are wee little birdies squeaking inside... what joy...
and suddenly, the rose bushes are full of buds - sprouting forth as if to make up for lost time. in just a matter of days, they have gone from tightly closed where you can see them in all their hairiness - to slowly beginning to burst forth...
glorious visions of beauty to see.
happy day.....
